I'm suddenly feeling very emo now.

Past events have affected me ever so.

Its as if everyone around me is leaving.

I shan't mention names even though my blog is somewhat private.
Afterall, even walls have ears.

At the start of poly, I thought to myself that this cycle would stop, or even if it were to repeat itself, it wld be every 3-4 years.
But guess what?
This cycle seems to have accelerated by like a million times. Its happening every few months.

What is the matter? Why is all of this happening to me?

Gone were the days when I could safely consider someone my close friend because for all I know, your next on the list to walk out the door.

I aimlessly ponder, my thoughts flyig through the memories I once had and shared with all of you. And one by one, I wondered why all of this happened.

I feel terrible thinking of all that once was and the tinge of regret at not being able to relive those memories.

No matter how hard I try to forget or ignore you all, you will always remain part of my memories.
And unfortunately, there is no possible way for me to erase all that.

Ah well. I have to get some sleep. Perhaps, God will grant me respite tmr.

Bonsoiree 9:17 AM