Just a phase
Monday, September 29, 2008
I havent spoken much to anyone today. Actually, I havent spoken much at all. It almost pains me to be sociable. I just glare at people now if they irritate me, or, I just ignore them. I kind of enjoy this strange nonchalance.
I'm supposed to be happy, because my dear god brother is safely back from his first two weeks in NS. Thank the heavens that his safe.
Yet I feel very empty.
Another amazing thing is that my self control seems to be growing. I went out yesterday to Parkway and Vivocity with my family and amazingly, I didnt buy anything.
I think I drove my mom insane with my emotionless answers, whenever I did answer her.
My grandfather thinks that I was having a bad mood and Kuan Wei says that its just a phase.
Somehow, I do enjoy this.
I think its more of a product, a product created by my painful past. I think this is the best way now for me to avoid pain. This just somehow give me a sense of newfound confidence.
Its amazing how I look at the world now.
The very fact that I actually blogged is something.
And in any case, I finished reading the Twilight series. All 4 books within 3 days. It is simply beautiful. And it makes me wonder if these immortals do exist for I would not mind trading anything for the comfort.
I strangely empty now. Devoid of emotions.
--Merci tout le monde--
8:42 AM
