Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Well, the year is about to end. only 7+ hours left and I am supposed to be reflecting on how everything went.
In truth 2008 has been terrible. Too many false hopes dashed by inconvenient happenings. Granted there have been bright spots across board such as my brilliant and memorable trip to Perth, to finding my 2nd family in school. But these fail to cover up the other more painful truths.
I lost my closest friends this year. That perhaps was one of my darkest moments ever. I fell into the abyss with no one to help me. Although the saying goes that what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger, and i did emerge stronger after that, the scars still remain and it set the tone for the rest of the year.
At the same time, for the 2nd time, OTC failed to meet my expectations. It seems nothing can come even close to the experience of my first ever camp in TP and my empire, Ophix.
I truly miss all the time we spent together, planning games, slacking around for god knows what reason.
School and home have both been terrible. I'm sick of having to put up a brave face since everyone thinks I have a perfect background. Pretending that I have brilliant people around me, people thinking that I lead some glamourous lifestyle, its annoying. Can people just shut up.
I'm here at my cousin's place all alone, why? Cuz my cousin decided that he wanted to eat at Eastpoint with our friend frm perth whose staying here. and he didnt even bother inviting me along.
God.
Will someone ever hear my screams, cries and prayers?
--Merci tout le monde--
12:44 AM
