Friday, December 12, 2008
Yesterday was such an emotionally draining day.
There were tears, joy, saddness, delight.
Tears of joy, sympathy but above all pain.
I'm such a textbook person. I hate it.
Bernita said just now when I went to send dorothy off, "Nat, I hate you for always being right."
I replied, "I hate myself for always being right too."
What can I say. People should seriously look into their mirrors and see that their actions and words are miles apart.
Nicholas just told me, " You shouldn't bottle everything up. You should let everything out."
But really. Most people are worried that if they reveal some things, then people will judge them differently. I say that if they are your true friends. It wouldnt change anything. Ok not change that much anyway. (Am I right?? this is to that certain someone anyway)
True friends are the ones that will be there for you when you are at your lowest point, when all hope is lost and when you just need someone to give you a helping hand out of the deep pit.
Unfortunately, I dont think i have that. So the next best solution? Never put all your eggs in one basket. Its called diversifying. LOL
I'm so exhausted now. And next week is ultra busy week. Worse then this week. OTC coming up. I dont know why, but I'm not that excited for it. Even though Nicholas is coming back but maybe its because I know that somehow I might not be able to bring myself to sit and eat with my dear Ophix. I cannot bring myself to sit on the same table of any of them after what they did to me.
--Merci tout le monde--
8:31 PM
