I read the many posts and saw the pictures. how happy everyone looked. i just dont know what to say. i feel so much hurt and pain everytime i feel reminded by what happened.
it hurts most when they brazenly declared that 'everyone turned up and we had alot of fun'.
so what now? i'm just another speck of dust in the world?

add on to the fact that everything around me is crumbling, and i have a brilliant drama performance.
except it has no happy ending, more of a film noir-ish feel.

i want to take a long break. but now i realised i cant go to melbourne in june cuz i have SIP.
another reason to hate SIP. wonderful.

tomorrow i have to deal with a full day of politics for council. i hope god smiles on me and helps me survive with everything intact.

and now more then ever i need my own space. i just blurted to farhan stuff just now and told him i dont want to see any one for the next few days.

gahh. bloody brilliant 5:52 AM